Hatsune Miku

2010-08-10T07:14:00.001+08:00

maybe i should just disappear.

some updates in my life

2010-03-11T22:56:00.001+08:00

it's been since months since I last blog, so using my itouch to type
out my stuffs while outfield at bmr. Anyway many things has happen
recently. for those who already knew, yeap finally I am attached to
this girl call mei ling. Started out as a friend of my friend, we
start talking more to each other over msn. Well we started meeting out
first for a photography challenge thing, where she requires a dslr to
take photos so I borrowed my friend one. Quite enjoyed the outing and
without knowing the next week I asked her out to watch avatar. All
this happen during the time I was in bmt, juggling time between weiss
schwarz army and time with her. Well at first we just started as
friends but without me knowing it I started to fall in love for her.
Then during my birthday I got somewhat a hint. Don't know if it was
coincidence or what but she bought a heart shaped chocolate cake for
me. I took that as a first hint. Then through SMS she mentioned about
me letting girls lying on my shoulder and stuff, I took that as the
next step. Well the next movie we went to watch all well 2010 @ tiong
baharu plaza. Apparently through the movie she lay on my shoulder and
in response I lay on her head. Previously @avatar she tried but the
chair stop her. Oh well. I knew as a guy I must learn to be automatic
to ask her in hand to be my girl but I was not certain at all. To my
joy she blog about asking someone not to be so nice to her else
misunderstanding will occur. I actually questioned her and she say
what if I fell for you? I replied that let nature take it course, and
confessed to her and even ask her to be my gf the next day @ suntec
fountain on the feb 27th.

To me, mei ling is a wonderful girl. Caring, concern about my well
being and we clicked very well, so this time I am so doing my best to
keep her tight by my side this entire life. Already got many wishes
from my friends supporting me, though my parents are unaware at the
moment cause I have not tell them of this good news yet. I believe
they will be happy

Oh well sad to say my dear is going to Cambodia for a trip to help out
those poor people for 2 weeks from 22 march till 4 april. Pray that
she be alright and come home safely to me. Well, I guess this is all I
got to say for the moment other than I can't wait to see her this
coming Friday to spend time with her before she flies. Promised her
that I will pick her from the airport on the 4th april. Well she loves
to volunteer to help ppl and it was firstly me who ask her go though I
really regret badly now ha. Oh well hopefully she will read this on my
blog when I post it later or what using my hp Internet which means I
need to rewrite or maybe see how. Haha dear I love u.

On another note for gaming side, I manage to score a point in the
weiss schwarz league. Through sasami I manage to be the 4th in the
competiton, first time ever cause normally I have a winning rate of 2
wins 2 losses. really love my deck too, but obviously is my dardar
first haha.

Dar hope u will have a surprising weekend with me.

To add on, well someone has been feeling moody lately though I feel
she's staying strong but don't worry ok dear you got me to rely upon
anytime. Sorry for being stuck in camp when you face difficulties
outside. Anyway 2 weeks will pass through quickly? Really looking
forward to you coming back so we can spend more time together and also
introduce you to my parents.

Anyway been always reading your blog so anything just update me there
ok? Plus anyway I am going to set my Twitter for just I can receive
whatever tweets you post 24/7.

Dear promise me you be safe, full not hungry and stay optimistic! Love
ya.

2009-12-16T00:55:00.001+08:00

its like 1am now. i wondering what should i do. ha.

oh well.

Flight

2009-10-18T08:46:00.001+08:00

Time has finally beaten resistance, as it always does.
First Maiden Flight, and lets hope.

A day before the flight

2009-10-18T01:06:00.000+08:00

As usual I woke up late in the morning due to yesterday night late rest. After getting brunch, I was watching storm chasers on discovery channel, eat, packed my stuffs for wallaby, before I left home for an exciting day.

Chin Yong was asking me what time I would be leaving, which I did left my area at around 12. On the way there, I called up Gerald Tham, and happen to know that he would be at Kinokunya. Thus when I reached Orchard, I went up to find Inuran and Gerald together. After some shopping, we went over to Orchard Central, a new shopping centre in the area. Browsed games and toys at Funz Center, one of the shop at level 5, before we head over to somerset MRT. By that time, another Gerald, Gerald Wong, message me that he is already over at Sunshine Plaza TCG waiting.

Seeing that he's already there, I left the couple and went over to Sunshine as soon as possible. When I arrived over at Sunshine, and went over to the shop The Card Geeks, it was already full house. Seeing so, and Chin Yong was not there, Gerald, Takuya, a bunch of other guys and me went over to Ishi Mura, a Japanese foodcourt over at Paradise Center.

At Ishi Mura, we had a few card matches. I vs Doggyfong, one of the players, and he was trying out his new deck formation, mainly about Archer and Rin combo. Interesting especially he keeps on destroying my characters along with his, which I had to pay 3 to encore while he just need to discard one character card I think. But overall both matches we had, I won. Next I asked those guys around me on how to form a Komari deck. Got all my info and i was thus happy to write them down, hoping I could form it before I reach.

Also I had a WS duel with Gerald, and finally he won. He was damn happy, well thats good for him. Hopefully he will win more when the competition comes in a weeks time.

Chin Yong arrive not long after, and was considering if he would get a 2nd booster box. After deciding, and also I needed to get another Little Busters! EX deck for a certain trial deck card, he went over to the ATM, drew cash and went over to TCG to buy. Apparently we bought the deck, which I think it was the last one, the nanoha booster box, and also some card protectors.

Back again to Ishi Mura, and we saw Gerald with his friend Yihao and another guy heading over to the lan shop to play starcraft. We walked alot today. At Ishi Mura, we opened all the booster packs, and to our luck, One Ace of Ace Nanoha, One FOIL AOA Nanoha, one riot fate, one vita RR, and so long and so for. It was a damn lucky pick, and the tension was building up against me cause I had chose that box. STRESSFUL.

Deciding not to stay longer due to the crowds coming in, yet again we head back to TCG. The Phantom Trial Deck competition was still on, thus me, Takuya and Chin Yong went over to the Wanton Mee Shop, ordered a drink and we start forming his deck. Apparently with the amount of cards he have, he manage to almost form finish a Nanoha Fate deck. For Hayate, he still lacks a considerable amount of cards, which he has to find. We formed his deck over a long time until Gerald call us said we are ready to go.

Obviously go where? To Gerald's place of course! Took a bus down to his house, and went over to a food centre. There, Chin Yong finally found his 2 dollar Fried Rice. It was damn nice when I had it over at Gerald's home. We later walk all the way back to his house.

Alarmingly, he has a dog. I was afraid that it would bite, but instead learnt that the dog was more of excited than angry. The fun is next. After dinner, we played WS and Blazblue. As a newbie to the game, I had no idea on how to play, tried a few combos, learn something new, got trashed, and I retired to WS instead. Chin Yong was playing with me WS on training and he gets to know his card more. I could tell he was wearing out with all the combos in his brain.

There was this match though, quite a close call. I had 3 hp left, which is left 3 empty slots in the clock. He used a climax, which adds 1 soul and 1k attack power. He did an attack to me, and it was 3 damage. Triggered card gave another soul, thus 4 soul, 4 damage. As I flipped the 4th card, it was a CLIMAX. The tension was so high that both of us broke out into laughter and I was screaming for joy. Next turn, I did 2 damage, he canceled, and 1 damage for another and he died.
It was seriously the most fun match ever for today.

I also had a match with gerald, which he also killed me. Finally he won me twice. It was also very memorable due to both of us being level 3. Too bad I did not flip any climax as it was very far from what I could reach. Went to BlazBlue, random mashed Noel, and killed his Tager once. Everyone was shocked and screaming no game plan! Interesting though. Finally at the end of the day, which was already 11pm, I left a card for Gerald in for bringing Good luck and fate to him for the upcoming competition which I expect him to win.

After a long and tiring day, a walk to the bus stop, as I hear the roar of the bus from the distance, I knew, this day is over, and its time for me to go home, prepare, and head towards Australia.

I seriously enjoyed my day, and never once I did regret spending cash, money, just to enjoy with friends. I long to be back, get back my card from Gerald, play more WS with both Gerald and Chin Yong, and with new friends I made. Also not to mention, form my Komari deck first.

Some target cards already in my mind. So lets pray hard, do well, drive safely, and stay happy.

P.S. Gerald TAKE CARE OF THE DRAWING!

Yugioh

2009-08-23T17:03:00.000+08:00

Playing that now, ha. anyone got cards to sell me? or interested to get any cards from me?

Music

2009-08-07T21:44:00.003+08:00

Yet I wonder. Who does appreciate Death Metal Music, in the friends that I know of, only one guy.

Well thankfully I do not have a specific of genre of music I hate.

anyway just something that I listened to a few minutes ago
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vzzH3EWqh3k&feature=channel_page
click with caution. it may sound unappealing to you.

2009-08-04T16:05:00.000+08:00

TODAY PASS DAMN FAST, and i never go anywhere. LOL cause i dont have money. WEE

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Well, feeling very weird, its like yet again I need to book in tonight, yet another "sunday" type of feeling. Hate it. SERIOUSLY HATE IT.

was bored. so 100 questions

2009-08-04T14:52:00.002+08:00

001. Real Name?- Joel Lim Choon Wee
002. Nickname(s)?- L, Frost, Zetsu, GTSFrost, Joanna?
003. Star Sign? -Aquarius
004. Male or Female?- Male
005. Elementary?- Bukit Timah PAP
006. Middle School?- Pei Hwa Presbyterian Primary
007. High School?- Chua Chu Kang Secondary
008. Hair Color?- Dark Brown, or light, depending on sunlight
009. Long or Short hair? - very short
010. Loud or Quiet?- Depends on my mood, but normally quite loud and chatty
011. Sweats or Jeans?- Always Jeans
012. Phone or Camera?- Did you know i always love to sms?
013. Fruits or Fried Foods?- Fried Food, but not all the time. will vomit.
014. Drink or Smoke?- Smoking? nah. Drinking? Nah. unless its coke
015. Do you have a crush on someone? - yes but seemes i fail
016. Eat or Drink?- i prefer drinking water over eating food
017. Piercings? - Currently no, but was CONSIDERING. =X
018. Tattoos?- Considered before but i have phobia of needles.
019. Been in an airplane?- Even though i studied aerospace, sadly i never flew before
020. Been in a relationship?- twice, and both hurts
021. Been in a car accident? - Yes, uncle ram car into another car but it was the other car fault
022. Been in a first fight?- maybe..
023. First Piercing?- after army i suppose?
024. First Best Friend?- Lo Khai? we knew each other since.. i dunno when.
025. First Award?- Pri 3 sports day.
026. First Crush?- believe me, she was call michelle, and i knew her when i was like 5 years old.
027. First Fashion Sense?- technically speaking... NO. but i like to be casual
028. First kiss?- my ex gf?
029. Last Person You Talked To?- my mother?
030. Last Person You Texted?- Quek Kar Seng, was texting about RC stuffs
032. Last Food You Ate?- oh.. Lays Sour Cream and Onion. still on my table. was munching it
035. Last Thing You Bought?- oh. cute little zetsu keychain
036. Last person you hugged?- EH? some random guy? i think it was desmond. no idea. i dont go around hugging people
037. Food?- last food? or fav? if fav would be sashmi
038. Drinks?- COKE
039. Clothing?- my white shirt
040. Books?- manga. YEA. else not really
041. Musics?- currently into rock and dance perhaps. j pop j rock mainly
043. Colours?- Blue
044. Movies?- most fav? back to the future trilogy
045. Positions?- mm no idea yet cause i haven tried it out. but would just like to lie beside her and adore her cute looking face when she's slping.
046. Kissed in the snow?- does it ever SNOW IN SINGAPORE?
047. Celebrated Halloween?- i hate pumpkins
048. Had Your Heart Broken?- always
049. Went over the minutes on your cell phone?- always.. due to army
050. Someone questioned your sexual orientation?- YES. but i guess its a joke
051. Came out of the closet?- no? no idea
052. Gotten Pregnant?- DUDE I AM A FREAKING MALE
053. Had an abortion?- HOLY SINCE WHEN WE GOT WOMBS?
054. Done something you've regretted?- dont regret and never look back =X
056. Hid a secret?- Hitmitsu
057. Pretended to be happy?- yea but i guess... LOL
058. Met someone who changed your life?- perhaps. or i been changing people life too?
059. Pretended to be sick?- Maybe.. its common to GENG around
060. Left the country?- Yes, on a holiday trip to msia
061. Tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it?- eh? yea i guess so
062. Cried over the silliest thing?- yea. cried over getting LOST when i was young. very young. pus the shopping centre was small..
063. Ran a mile?- i think so. never stop.. didnt, cause she keeps me going ( was in sec 4 that time) until my legs gave way.
064. Went to the beach with your best friend(s)?- LOL. 7 of them will do?
065. Stayed single the whole year?- yea currently.. no choice. army.
066. Eating?- my chips?
068. Drinking?- coke? i haven finish both when i started typing this
069. I'm about to?- type more?
070. Listening to?- my keyboard clicks, mum talking and the fan.
071. Plans for today?- go find yugioh decks and prep for book in.
072. Waiting for?- ORD
073. Want kids?- sure, 2 will do. kaito and miku =X
074. Want to get married?- in years to come
075. Careers in mind?- aircraft engineer
o76. Lips or Eyes?- Eyes
077. Shorter or Taller?- shorter than me
78. Romantic or Spontaneous?- both, but to choose, romance?
079. Nice stomach or Nice arms? - arms
080. Sensitive or Loud?- sensitive
081. Hook-up or relationship?- relationship
082. Trouble-maker or Hesitant?- heistant
083. Lost glasses or Contact Lens?- always lost my glass
084. Ran away from home?- nearly in sec 4
085. Hold a gun/knife for self defense?- yea.
086. Killed somebody?- not yet i suppose =X
087. Broken someone's heart?- maybe
088. Been arrested?- nearly, but was a misunderstanding
089. Cried when someone died?- almost
091. Miracles?- if they happen its good, but i will create miracles for someone i love
092. Love at first sight?- its lust instead i suppose
093. Heaven?- somewhere up there
094 Santa Claus?- if he's alive, PLEASE FREAKING GET ME ALL THE ANIME STUFFS IN THIS WORLD
095. Sex on the first date?- maybe, but must see the girl face =X ok kidding. wont do it
096. Kiss on the first date?- also no. i am a shy guy
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? - YES, but its too late
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life?- NO NEVER CAUSE OF ARMY
099. Do you believe in God?- YES, he is also up there
100. This is the 100th and last.- wee.. more chips and coke

2009-08-03T12:52:00.001+08:00

its all over.. too late.. i guess.

Quattro and Govibe Derinnger

2009-07-31T20:31:00.001+08:00

Sad to say, my replaced Quattros had some error. Had forgotten to tested it @ there first before I went back home. The Govibe Derinnger was very good. Love the sound out, and I suppose it will go well with my Quattros.

Well, another trip tomorrow to Jaben. Really have to thank Uncle Wilson

Tormentation?

2009-07-26T11:52:00.003+08:00

Its always the same old saturday, with each morning waking up to a long tiring day, before heading down to MTLine to get the vehicles before driving off.

No its not about driving. Its never about driving. Somewhat its very nostalgic each time at the location I always go to. Each and every single day, yet the feeling remains with a pain. Sometimes I wonder, if humanity was almost all gone, and yet leaving some behind, how would those people do to survive?

Just looking at the sunset each saturday brings me sad to knowing my entire day has been wasted, instead which I could spend meaningfully with some of my closer friends. Or I could use it for other stuffs like doing more meaningful purpose. Wonders to me what is really meaningful.

It makes me seem powerless, something so near yet so far to grab. Something that I should have done long time ago. Something, yet never once I had the courage just to speak up, just to express, but never did it ever happen once.

Guess its time to pile up my courage, might, and just express it, regardless of the end result, I guess its selfish of me, just to let this feeling out.

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Well on the other hand, been quite happily drifting around recently, thanks to Bukit Panjang Drift Meet, I seem to be enjoying what I have been doing, and without any regrets. Time sure flies since I recalled the old days at Bukit Batok, which had shrink a considerable amount since I last visited there.

With the economy unstable, I guess its part and parcel of life people will start to save up and use the money for other purposes. I should do that too. But always recalling the fact that, MONEY is just a TOOL.

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Cosplay Cosplay Cosplay.
Seeing the FHM shana cosplay puts me off. What atrocity. There is no accuracy and feel in the art, except just to show off female bodies, as usual FHM. I dont read this kind of magazine though, not sadly to say but its just not in my interests.

Promised Inuran that i be heading down to direct ( what gerald refered to as SaiKang) but am totally cool with that event. Should be glad that I was invited to go. Something that I had never seen before and it be my first time at another's photoshoot.

Oh. Promised them to be the chauffeur when their wedding comes.

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By the way, my phone was lost a few weeks ago, sad to say. Am glad that I am using Microsoft Outlook to sort and sync contacts, so you pretty much guess what kind of person I am. LAZY. Seriously with so much contacts, and emails, I pretty much have to type in manually to sync my hotmail contacts with my phone. Its never done though, never did I once started on this project to even to complete it. Am just feeling laid back and lazy to do stuffs.

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Comes down to gaming wise, nothing seems interesting lately. Even with the odd number of games my friend Jonathan keeps introducing them to me, never once I ever tried out a single game he said. For some apparent reason, I am just bored of gaming. Bored. Plain out bored. I guess hanging out with friends playing is way more fun that just being a computer addict and just sticking to the computer an entire day, just to level up in some same old repetitive mass online RPG. Though I got to admit, I seem to be playing MapleSea, cause Sky asked me to help him out.

Oh well, just a random long rant of this blog that I had not post for a very long time, almost 30 days since the last. A lot have gone through this month and in army am going to be categorized as a Cat C1 soon. Well thats much for me to say. Hopefully it deem purposeful for me to post something here again, with much to say, and with good news that I am able to do what I want to do, or would say NEED, since a long time ago.

Pray hard, and hope that it will come true.

NDP

2009-06-30T17:51:00.001+08:00

LOL i got selected into NDP for driving -_-

oh well.. doing pretty well i guess, hoping to claim my $$ soon, since i already hit my target.. left ard 3-4k ba to my license =D

mmm just been tired lately i guess.. damn tired... dont feel like doing anything but to slack, drift, relax.

Medical

2009-03-30T15:46:00.002+08:00

Later got medical @ hospital MRI my neck. wonder how serious it is wor.
ha. looks like i still yet to confess to her. i felt like a failure. but as usual.. DONT GIVE UP. chances are already there. just go ahead i suppose.

i wonder what will the scan turn up. more problems? only god knows until i done the scan. in any terms, i am afraid of death, yet, i know its sooner or later. later = when i 120 years old LOL =X if i can live that long.

now just thinking of army how to settle with life inside, esp when bunks get changed etc. really i wish i was schling with stress or working with stress than be in the army. least what i know is, army is.. worse than death.

ah hopefully TBN got some outing soon. bored here.

2009-02-15T12:22:00.002+08:00

i dreamt i confessed to her and she accepted me.

i dreamt i got a ring for her.

i dreamt i was making props.

I pray hard all will come true.

2009-02-11T23:22:00.000+08:00

whats the purpose if i cant EVEN ASK HER STRAIGHT if she's willing to go out with me on valentine's

or asking her if she would like to be my gf..

or assuring her that she be happy and safe with me, as i will protect her always till my last breath.

WHY AM I SUCH A COWARD?

DIE.. DIE.. DIE.. I SHLD JUST FUCKING DIE..

2009-02-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

valentine's, and shes book by family.

looks like another lonely year for me.. weee... FTW..

and seems no one i can talk to with my pleas and stuffs to rant.. i think thats what a blog for..

but i dont really rant do i? or i just do just for the fun but the real deal i kept inside?

i dont know about myself..

i seriously wonder whats my purpose of staying alive in this world... seriously...

2009-01-27T11:07:00.003+08:00

sometime i wonder what am i really doing... seriously..

but well.... i can be someone that sacrifices everything?

to me its about you

2009-01-26T00:29:00.002+08:00

to me, its about your happiness, to see you smile

suddenly it feels like, without you, i become hopeless and loss, i become like the world has nothing on to motivate me to go forward. but yet with you around, i know what i should and can do, and i know where i can set my path ahead.

sometimes, without you ard i feel lost, moodless, and there is nth that i really want to do

you, that makes a difference in my life, and for that i thank you.

it made me realised that how weak i can become without you supporting my side, without you being at my side.
and it made me realised how important you are in my life.

so, ask me how to live without you? impossible.

2009 1 Jan

2009-01-01T15:29:00.002+08:00

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Database: New Folder, renamed : New Year memory

Started out with me in camp booking out, didnt get to drive though just parking and more theory, went rushing home psing ron along the way he sian but i manage to reach home by 2, change shower, do my stuffs and leave to suntec. Didnt reach till like 1550 hours meeting feng ming and pammy @ harris bookstore. which after that we went over to otaku house to see cosplay, wanting them to try on but mika wasnt ard so a bit hard.

went over to eng wah cinemas to see what movie as feng ming has 2 free tickets so we manage to grab one extra @ 9.50, watching YES MAN! and basically everyone paid ard 3 bucks for the tickets XD. after which we went over to waffle place and had waffles for snacks, was very hungry due to the fact it was like 4-5 plus and i had lunch at 0930 in the morning @ SDC

ordered a few waffles, ranging from durian cream (taste a bit weird), choco hazelnut (its very nice!), maple honey, which is quite normal and tuna, the tuna was spicy T.T we ate and chat and took photos here and there while i was happily spamming away the button on pammy ixus. next we went over to rockery, drink a bit, chat, and well, times up so fast, like few hours just pass by just basically chatting.

went over to the movie, started when we went in. power sia eng wah always start on time, better that those who always have long long advertisement dont know for what XD money i guess?

YES MAN, for those who watch, should know how good it is, esp with jim carrey! XD enjoyed the show throughly and well, manage to cheer up feng ming XD least look better forward in life. we left the building at the wrong place, and ended up somewhere along the road to north bridge road, walk to the centre instead where the fountain is and took some more pictures. (watashi kamera desu ne) yea -_- always just camera and more camera. after which feng ming wanna join her collegues to countdown, while pammy going down to huimin house (speaking of which she's still zzzing now) so we had to go down to marina and esplanade, walk there quickly, XD, kinda got lost once in a while i lead them a bigger non congested road, easier to navigate ard, saw a 350z and GTR along the way with a 4S. sleek cars...

continuing on to esplande, pammy left us there while she took the bus back, so we had to walk all the way to clark quay. walking along the road that was closed @ fulleton one there, forgot the name, walk and took pictures of everything i can, and feng ming wanna take photo with policeman lol... XD

next we went down another bridge, sorry i bad with names so forgot think is benjamin shears. went walking along the whole of collar quay then clark quay towards central. finally we reach central opposite where all the clubs are, and navigate though the whole squeezy crowds and found her friends @ clinic. when we reach they just finish drinking beer, and as for me no alcohol so no touching of anything. they went to open a vodka, which the bottle was kept by feng ming in the end, and yea, 40%, lucky i didnt touch. the count down was fun, with the crowds shouting, etc, dancing, and as the night burns though, everyone got high, dance, sing, blah blah, etc. took lots of photos again, thanks to pammy camera, and yea really enjoy the night hoping it doesnt end even though i was shagged out.

after which we left ard 0120 hours, and yea need to take Night Rider home. Went to cheers to find spaghetti, cause she wanna eat, but nil there wasnt any to be found anyway. so we wanna go back home. took NR3 halfway till like stevens road, then she felt unwell, we drop off to let her rest. ok, we = me and her only -_- so basically had the responsibility to send her home. after hours waiting there, =X she finally felt better so yea, send her home on NR3, all the way she was resting on the bus while i just try to take winks here and there not to miss her stop. finally reach her house bus stop, manage to walk her home, and yea, least she's safe and sound, other than being high..

took a cab back from the same bus stop, and yea, a bit ex due to midnight charge but heck la, least she's safe XD plus neither would i wanna walk home even if i could i rather not. since it will take 15-30 mins while a cab ride takes like 3 mins? reach home ard 0430, shower, watch show, chat abit, and finally i fell aslp @ 6am, seeing the sun rise.

and when i woke up, its 1100 hrs XD omg 5 hours of slp. thinking of booking in at night makes me ZZZ but what to do army.

least, i manage to spend my first day of the new year with a blast! XD

anyway merry xmas... OOPS i meant happy new year... to all who read my post and to all my family, friends out there, and to anyone, any aliens, a very happy new year, and all the BEST ahead! ganbatte!

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2008-12-08T00:43:00.001+08:00

outside this shell is happiness, cheerful, joyfulness.
inside this shell is agony, pain and sadness.

MSET COURSE

2008-12-04T21:01:00.002+08:00

having a course now till 12 dec, which is just nice for my cosplay chalet on the day itself. it be rush i guess, going home then rushing down to pasir ris.

mmm would say that so far everything going as planned, the leaf structure done, left cloth. i hope when done it doesnt look f up instead. ha.

life is currently interesting, yet uninteresting. waiting for hows life back in sungei gedong to come, my driving course, my medical check ups, etc etc. dont know where i be next, but least now i may have a set target in mind.

well share it with my camp mates yet but aint sure if i shld go for her.. LOL. confusing, cause its been sometime since i liked anyone anyway, other than my heavy fetish for hatsune miku XD see my blog and you know why.

mmm.. think i shall blog later on, having dinner XD

2008-11-02T19:30:00.002+08:00

Tentatively

3 days in Sungei Gedong Camp, till 5th last day

6 - 21st @ Sembawang Camp stay out 730-6 for MSET course

22 AFA can camp for it early in the morning

after that 24 suspected stay in Sembawang Camp Starting Training for Driving Course.

Hopefully to get my LEAF done before 24th, so things would be much easier.

2008-10-28T08:48:00.001+08:00

Alright I would need to speak this out, and for anyone who takes 190.

Yesterday my friend and I was going down to City Hall from Bukit Panjang, and the bus was pretty packed but I manage to find a seat near the centre of the bus, where the bendy section is. No idea what it was called so call it the bendy section.

Then at this stop just before the highway to BKE, even more people board, and seeing that an old uncle was coming I gave my seat up to him.

I went over to my friend who was standing at one corner of the bendy section, and there was this man behind me. In the bendy section there was a few other people and one guy who is standing in the middle lying on the pole.

Alright I may have accidently step on his father's foot lightly, or so I assumed his father, due to off balance as the bus was doing some turns before heading into the highway.

He glared at me, then the next thing i know he stomped his entire feet between the space between my friend and another passenger, like he was very pissed and starting to give us warning signs.

Ok the next thing I did may not sound the right thing to do, but I started cracking my knuckles and neck ready for a fight, and so did my friend, he kept the PSP and yea, was prepared.

Luckily that guy's father went over and pat him, hinting him not to start a fight.

Basically that incident made me pissed for the entire day. Its like, that guy is 20 plus years old, and seriously accidents do happen on the cramped bus, and I did not meant to step on his father foot, even though I did step, it was with little force. And those who know my post eariler, i just recovered from an injury thus its harder for me to hold my balance.

But why get so pissed off, and show violence?

In the end when there was space I told my friend to move to the back before things may get ugly.

Well just sharing this incident with you guys here, and at the same time letting something out from inside me.

Thanks

2008-10-19T11:45:00.000+08:00

lol so fast pay money again finish
ZZZ

well who ask me buy so much stuffs XD

aims: DSLR next. wonder how much for the budget sia. ha.

2008-10-14T18:25:00.000+08:00

back home a while, have to reach camp by 10.

borrowed sis psp, she so pissed ZZZ

only a while nia.. once psp 3000 out i get liao...

2008-10-12T23:04:00.001+08:00

back to camp. HAIS.

2008-10-11T00:42:00.002+08:00

ZZZ

wanna get a HP

SIMPLE

no cam

just use for army.. AND NOT SO FUCK UP LIKE SOME LAUYA NOKIA PHONE WHO DOESNT RECOGNIZED MY CONTACTS IN MY MSG INBOX AND SO LITTLE SPACE

AND ALL LINES HAVE TO BE FUCKING CHEE BYE USED UP.

FUCK

2008-10-07T18:18:00.001+08:00

no more MC lo!

back to CAMP

BACK TO DRIVING.

i wanna drive! XD

drive and drive and drive..

cause..

i love to travel =\

HATSUNE MIKU COMING IN 3-5 DAYS WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

2008-10-06T22:32:00.002+08:00

physio and checkup tml..

hope my leg is better? XD

and i wanna DRAW BETTER! practise FTW.

lols...

i need table...

I WANNA COSPLAY

I NEED MONEY

I WANNA GET OUT OF SG..

ok just my random ranting.

2008-09-23T22:03:00.002+08:00

woot.. bought new shirt. 55.90 XD

mum help paid 50 XD

thanks to her.

tml heading PLC. wonder why.

sat going out. must try contacts XD

2008-09-22T23:08:00.001+08:00

taking a step slowly each time.

now i worry for EOY cosfest.

damn wondering what will i have to do tml @ jurong camp. today was so bored.

2008-09-21T00:59:00.003+08:00

finally back from GCA the last day.

MET A LOT OF PEOPLE, yea, thats what i said, CEO, GMs, etc etc.

job time! XD. after army.

and manage to target on someone liao finally. after so long. how long?

since someone rejected me mths ago.

2008-09-18T00:25:00.001+08:00

ok i will post tml. now drunk and tired.

anyway posting = driver.

lols.

2008-09-15T23:54:00.000+08:00

A123 LOL wanna get it ASAP XD

WED WED WED.

2008-09-14T22:04:00.001+08:00

just got myself a new LCD, paid 100 out of 500 bucks, so left 400 to go.

and for fk sake it cant dual compatiable with my other LCD monitor.. so other one kinda WASTED.

but good, its a TV also, yea so can watch shows, remote, change to com when using. like that parents wont complain i watch tv and play games at the same time. haha.

die la wonder how much cosplay cost XD. must save even more?

2008-09-12T20:13:00.001+08:00

hatsune miku is in.

lately lazy take photos. XD.

2008-09-12T01:22:00.001+08:00

pok gai pok gai pok pok pok pok gai!

no money liao la!

lols.

ok the darn magazine minus so much! T.T no more spending this mth, i got my pay 2 days ago and half is gone, some return friend cash, some to buy a servo, and some for my figurine. zzz.

60 to qks return
80 for servo
40 for hatsune figma (40 plus)

lols.

ard 180 gone? plus i go out makan, etc, DIE la

monday guess last time i going out, unless needed, cause mon need go settle my cosplay stuffs.

DIE

today went to karin bdae, quite fun. haha.

2008-09-10T08:38:00.001+08:00

wonder if i got enuff cash this mth. zzz

2008-09-08T00:56:00.001+08:00

not sure what to post. lols.

2008-09-04T00:28:00.000+08:00

crack bone become chip bone?
LOL

wonder what CGH doing.

nvm i can walk a bit now anyway.

2008-09-02T12:38:00.001+08:00

lols ok.

preorder for rin and len liao XD

2008-09-02T00:51:00.001+08:00

god i love my w550i.

split into 2 and still can use. LOL

glue it back again, as usual.

well i worry for uni suddenly, with NS cocking up everpart of my study life, its like i am getting dumber each day, getting stupider etc. zzz.

i need to study ! argh~

think free go do some brain refreshing with 3D designing stuffs, port folio, drawing, doing back tutorials from last time and recalling how to do them again....

damn army.

waste 2 years of my life.

teacher's day

2008-09-01T01:30:00.003+08:00

first sep. lols.

teachers day.

not visiting though .stuck at home.

ok seriously i need ideas on how to do the venus fly trap for zetsu. i got an idea of how to secure the frame. using fiberglass cast. ha.

2008-08-29T03:46:00.001+08:00

ok this is a must add

HATSUNE MIKU PSP GAME DEVELOPED BY SEGA RELEASE 2009!
PSP-3000 GRAPHIC ROCKS> CLARITY > SAME PRICE

omg.

lols.

but cfm within a while tio crack liao.

haha.

but so getting the UMD.

PRAY HARD GOT ENG SUBTITLES.

2008-08-29T02:25:00.002+08:00

offically broke XD

ok total stuffs i bought this mth amount to almost 300 = my pay almost gone.

plus RC side i spend 250.

zzz....

ok what i got so far ordered

hatsune miku figma (max factory) sep 10 release
hatsune miku figurine (sega) oct release
hatsune miku nendoroid (good smile factory) dec release
Packaged Feat. Hatsune miku CD on the way liao
Fate T. Harlaown figma(max factory) got it liao
Saber figma(max factory) on the way liao
Konata figma (order processing haven paid) aug restock.

YEA THOSE COST ME A BOMB.

but look at the bright side.

they can be kept, i want them badly, and they are like limited stock?

and sep 10 coming soon. PAY DAY ><

2008-08-28T11:38:00.000+08:00

think i may overspend again.

saw tsukasa figma. so kawaii

buay tahan liao XD

2008-08-22T13:55:00.002+08:00

think she got bf already from what i can see in friendster.

thats it

no more chance liao.

guess its the end for me.

mix emotions cause.. yea.. its sudden again. lol.

guess.. i rather die...

no idea..

hais...

2008-08-20T13:29:00.002+08:00

clean up lots of stuffs in my room to make way for new stuffs. didnt know my room has so much rubbish hidden all over the place. seriously -_-

well heard from my officer that i just have to shoot live range then BMT shld be ok, else i OOT liao. well no chance for command sch so f it, lols. wonder what is next i guess? lol. must shoot la!

cant wait for tml review, see what doc say. some people say bone dont heal so fast even though its a crack. hairline. -_-

well

AUG 27, hatsune miku CD packaged release. cant wait for the high quality sound add into my touch + a decent ear piece =D

now listening to those ripped off youtube = sucky but well wanna listen have to live with it.

jon didnt won the itouch, he got NDS instead. darn those last min people who chiong votes. z. they never see content. they see votes. hais.

sad i guess? but nvm can kope his NDS and play games that i wanna play =D

stuffs to add in room. lots. wanna get a small shelf to put at the corner of the room, make of wood la lols. and also see what can be added.

oct and dec, 2 other months i look forward to.

2008-08-19T11:33:00.000+08:00

ok found the colours i WANT ALREADY

http://www.tamiyausa.com/product/item.php?product-id=86054

cobalt green =D heng they got sia.

white combo.

LOL

ok now for spraying techniques. how to i make a fade of white into green?

ok ok.. concluded?

2008-08-19T11:02:00.002+08:00

woots, 2 more days to see review. then see if the crack there anot. well my leg still hurt, aches here and there @ the ankle and has sharp pain once in a while, it gets swollen if i never raise it up above waist level, which i always never do. dont think i be back in action soon i guess. like how long does it takes a crack to recover? 2 weeks? dont think so i dont have godly healing powers (though sometime i boast i got wahaha for the fun of it).

well now again cant download animes, due to Snowgate given out another love letter to one of our singaporeans dling DMC anime? lols. laugh out loud. there is even no such DVD or even VCD in singapore, and how the f we are going to watch it? lols. no idea man. blah blah blah.

well thanks to van, ravemastervan, he now motivate me miku GTR =X ok i finished fixing up my tt01E ytd night, later will be posting some pictures, and yea, was thinking of doing pure white with blue lines to make it nice. but after seeing the miku ek9 i hand itchy liao, later going to do picture printing and designing man =X. then spray 2 paint, one bluegreen one white, well must find the blue green paint first i guess? that combo hard to find well dont know what kind of green it is called.

also cant wait out for oct and dec to come, get my miku stuffs, and make miku drive the GTR ! lols. it will look damn cute and i will put as my main siggy for other forums wahaha.

mmm 23rd is my audition for SAF BAND. shld be taxiing down due to leg IF my bloody MC extends. also if MC extends encik visiting me on friday, yea, so must clean up room lols. well its not as messy as it seems, other than the addition of a new car in my room (sold off all my older ones). it seems like i downgrade sia. yokomo > ta05> tt01E -_-. yea later i jump up to a new drift CF chassis -_-

well the current aims for the months to come would be other than
nendoroid hastune miku
sega non scale hatsune miku figurine

addons:
hatsune miku figma (hope i can catch the preorder)
yeah racing lipo 3600 X2
estation balancer
GTB + 8.5R combo
cosplay items for akatsuki.

i guess the GTB aint the prioity, lols. cosplay first. lipos, needed but think i be getting 1 first to play ard with, another one will come in when i feel its time. got nimh to back up. lols.

nth much to do lately other than slack and roll ard in my wheelchair, which is quite sad actually but nth to emo about. its just darn irritating when the width of the wheelchair cant fit into some corridors then u have to like jump to that place. lols. think if this continues my right leg > left leg even more Z. wanna be balance but now looks like it cant be done.

mmm guess i be posting some pics of my tt01E up and with the GTR shell, and i go attached on the light buckets for the fun of it. lols. looks quite nice actually. ha.

2008-08-17T01:31:00.002+08:00

ok added on.

maybe i collecting some figurines? >< miku ones of course.

went to preordered a rerun of nendoroid. last time didnt buy cause no cash now got money different story la =D

anyway cant wait for my tt01E to come by on monday via karseng, with GTR shell. time to do some video and photo taking man.

ha.

and photoshop abit of the photos. wanna it be clear.

mmm..

guess i be saving, and saving. least for a uni ahead of me and stuffs that i have in mind to get

miku stuffs
rc stuffs
cosplay.
seriously i getting bored of gaming for some reason, thus no need to upgrade my com spec anymore ha. maybe more ram or see how when i go uni need better spec then say.

maybe a DSLR? yea need a camera badly, but well i aint knowing how to use one so, why get? mm. waste money? mm investment?

see the situation.

a normal digi cam can do good enuff shots i guess? ha.

2008-08-11T20:18:00.002+08:00

ok finally... manage to defeat some guy again in DMC4. lols.

new song on the block by sheryl nome =D

2008-08-11T00:14:00.002+08:00

another day went by.. ha. think i didnt gain much weight? did i?

walking ard in crutches. TIRING.

well hopefully tml be good, i be trying to draw out lena lee anyway. ha. saw one nice pic of her in the anime, must draw =D

well.. thats shld be it?

cant wait for new op of code geass r2 and macross frontier to be out.

mmmm...

qks said he be helping me get the car then i pay him.. ha. hopefully so it wont bore me out.

well...

maybe i shld go improve on drawing? ha.

mmm..

currently these are my hobbies i guess..

RCDrifting, Drawing, Cosplaying.

gaming is more of to pass time, watching anime for storylines etc. ha. unless u call watching tv a hobby.

its official

2008-08-10T00:56:00.002+08:00

its official.

my ankle bone crack!

damn it, now i think OOT liao! hais. why why why?!!!

oh well this is what happen.

BAC test, went over to waiting area, then warcry to start line, during running to start line, ran on uneven ground, left boot lost traction and slip, and i slide and wanna fall to my left. using strength, i push up to stand up right, in the process damaging my ankle. from shouting warcry become shout in pain. medic came, put ice, i tot twisted ankle so struggle ard all over the sch when we return. summore i did gym class. after that at night s4 guy come and massage for me.

next morning, sgt ask me go mo, went, xray, found crack.

went to CGH put cast, got 2 week MC. Z.

now? i guess i ready to be OOT. hais. recourse? maybe. i left live range and HG to pass bmt nia! ZZZ.

ok hopefully i can get the tt01E soon, so it will not be so boring for me @ home, least i could play with something, and when van pass me my tx back can start drifting and stuffs like that.

stuffs i think of getting other than the tt01e would be trf shocks and also drift tech tires. ha.

that shld be it, all getting from winnie, since after USD went up stuffs @ rcmart a bit ex liao eh!.

mikagami asking me to cosplay zetsu? not sure though but going to prepare cash for it, preferably my pay from nov and dec. lols. got aug pay, sep and oct maybe use for bl system and lipo. ha.

not sure. wonder what going to happen next man. life sure funny.

after those stuffs, must start to save, well, save as much as possible lols.

plan to do more vid soon, so catch them out, and remember to visit my pic blog haha.

2008-08-03T14:56:00.001+08:00

fuck.

my itouch contacts all gone, my schedule all gone, after i go update software. KNN

current IPPT

2008-08-03T14:00:00.001+08:00

well currently results are
situp:40
SBJ- 200cm - need 16cm more to pass hais.
shuttle run" 10.5 sec - 3 points. can push faster.
pull ups: 4, 2 more to pass
2.4 - nil, i didnt take. lols.

2008-08-03T13:23:00.003+08:00

went out ytd with some old friends, well kang sheng, and went to sls find and bought some neat stuffs. didnt overspend, but i realised i bought some useless stuffs. think my old CRT monitor died or either that my graphic card cant support dual screen system which i dont think is the problem cause i am using a 8 series from nvidia lols.

nth much lately, except thinking about army is si bei sian. wondering how much more can i train up and lose fats ha. be fitter then cosplay nicer =X. well added lenalee to one of my fav anime girl char. d.gray-man is not bad, but didnt watch much. interesting story line anyway.

mmm. she's been quite bz recently, or sometime ago so didnt manage to find time to go out with her anyway. well what to do, sch sch, i ns ns, here and there the only free time i really have is during the 2 days or 1 day of a week, sat and sun, and speaking about sun, today knn book in so bloody early @ 1740. that means ard 3-4 i need to leave home and i am left with like only 1-2 hours of net time to spend and stuffs like that. hais. when book in got so many road marches to complete. wonder if i am able to take it all anot. ha.

anyway saw FT and alan @ bpp just now, they were racing @ the hpi challenge. didnt see any guys from BB though, think they went to sengkang drift meet. lols. no time to drift, nor cash to drift. need do other stuffs, i just guess my priority for drifting just went down the ladder and stuffs like army cosplay and tech went up. well what to do, pay so little, i spending so much, plus i think of getting a lycosa keyboard, but have to see the situation anyway if i was to get, cause my current microsoft comfort curve keyboard is dying, with the left shift always malfunctioning, its bloody irritating.

found a very nice game to play, think i going to bugis arcade every week then, otomedius. ha. another interesting game, with cute anime girls and also the machine they use rocks. lols. so high tech, with high tech girls shooting down mobs and penguins and stuffs like that. kawaii neh!.

mmm speaking about japanese, there is a course coming up that i am going to take. lols. may be ex, but must learn, well my interest? ha. wondering how much of my interest changes over time, i guess its just me. got lots of things to learn, so little time. sometime i guess life is all about learning and learning thoughout.

thinking of later booking in also si bei sian. lol esp with my PS, a bit blur de. haha.

ah dont know what to do liaos. well signing off now anything i will update when i come back, if i never got any guard duty. ha. lots of stuffs to print, so can bring in to sketch and draw when i am free. next up need to find a pencil box, and rubber eraser.

NS LIFE

2008-08-02T11:22:00.002+08:00

finally field camp is way way over, so is SITEST but i didnt go for it cause i was sick lols. well lately manage to do some stuffs, and later going down to SLS to pimp up my com more lols. ok la add some cooling system @ the hdd area, wondering how to keep my graphic card cooler without adding more stuffs, and linking my g card to tv so i can watch show on tv instead of my com screen lols.

lots of stuffs to do but so little time. wondering where i be posted to also, since pop is coming in ard 1 mth time plus, and next week will be a hectic week cause lots of coy admin but i be doing road marches, from 4km to all the way to 12 within 1 week LOLS.

i be dead.

anyway weight loss is great, manage to slim down, and thus i aim to slim 5kg more before i maintain the weight. lol dad complaining that he cant use windows live ID on his nokia phone cause i change the net name and pw but seems like the rest of my system like my touch and laptop is working. =\

weird nokia phone

i swear i not buying nokia phone anymore. iphone 3G FTW lol

anyway was thinking what encik will say to me in my next interview. my hopes for command sch, aka OCS, i not aiming for sispec no matter what, is somewhat gone due to my poor health.

seriously i dont know why i keep on getting sick when i go tekong.

anyway cant talk much, gtg out soon to SLS time to pimp up my system LOL

hais

2008-07-04T21:24:00.001+08:00

back from tekong.

a bit sad.

hais.
emoing over relationship but aint sure what to do next. sometime it wonders me in life how come if there is always a chance with another girl i always tend to screw it up somehow by either not jioing her or jioing her. wonder how it really works. love. i am disliking it by the moment. hais.

2008-06-05T08:48:00.003+08:00

time sure flies.

one day, you are a civilian. next, you are a NSF. and you are going to be botak lols
i am somewhat scared now cause later need take 2 jabs. and i am frighten of jabs. other than that, its about getting used to my new life in the army.

changes, is what i have to adapted to. and thanks sarah, she remembered i am going in today. nth big but its nice to have some real friends to support you.

real friends. take note.

not those pretend to be.

hopefully all in army would be a smooth smooth breeze, with a few ups and downs to make life more interesting, and all the best to those who are enlisting soon.

well got lots of stuffs to prepare for, must be mentally ready, and willing to accept changes.

i be back in 2 weeks time, so look out for my next post for those who have been reading.

ah i wanna watch kyouran kazuko nikki! random like shiet lols.

2008-06-04T11:40:00.002+08:00

sigh. no more pink IC liaos HAIS

SAD SAD SAD

but also nvm.

i never use my IC much anyway LOL!

2008-06-04T01:44:00.000+08:00

woot.

1 day left.

going out later with someone.

wonder how will it be like.

Cafe Cartel

2008-06-01T16:52:00.002+08:00

sucks.

the service is bad
food. ok ok
price - ex

ok the service is really bad. and alot of stuffs out of stock.

NO cookie and cream drink
NO dory fish
NO this NO that.

sell what shit?

its like a saturday.

never go there to eat again.

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mmmm

GTB combo with 10.5 R ard 300 odd. not bad.
400 odd for a new chassis.
50 odd for GTR shell
95 for balancer
and wonder how many lipos i going to get? 1 or 2 packs?

total cost around 1k =\

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magic collected 101 cards out of 301, with ard 3-4 rares in collection.

land cards almost all done except 1 swamp.
think next i be buying a black blue deck
then i get booster 1 per week.

rest be in saving and RC. damn need save also lols.

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think for RC case, shell, gtb, chassis, balancer and lipo tgt.
slowly =D

and need to retrain drift, but i guess i be doing casual instead of competive.

2008-05-30T00:00:00.003+08:00

finally got my graduation

finally i leave this dreaded sch.

to admit, i like the teachers there

i just dread some hypocrites around me.

i just do.

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NS coming in ard 6 days time, must train down my BMI to below 27, pass IPPT

AIMS
6 pull ups - best 3 in sec 4
10.3 shuttle - best 10.0 in sec 4
12.30mins 2.4km - around the same in sec 4
40 or more sit ups - anytime now also can
216cm standing broad jump my best 219 Oo or 220 in sec 4
sit and reach. wonder how to train that lols.

current BMI is 28.6 ba.
PIA PIA PIA

then go OCS

then airforce, pia studies when enter uni plus constant exercise
less online gaming

play more magic, play more drift.

anyway decided to go

yokomo DM
titanium racing CVD
GTB 9.5r or 10.5r BL with reverse
s9451 servo
lipos.

think ard 1k would be enuff for all =\

wahaha.

money spender! must work hard! wahaha.

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i love my life now do i? hopefully i meet real friends in NS, those who can go thru thick and thin with me. i wont geng my way thru, but put in effort. time to change my life for the better.

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with drifting i believe it will increase my patience, cause yea u need a lot of training to get it perfect. then rest of the days i think train exercise lols. keep fit is important.

i guess if schedule out, mainly drifting on sat, rally on sun,

mon - fri exercise, if i 8-5, else if inside just do more exercise.

then if start studying again, same thing, mon - fri exercise after school, drift sat rally sun. =X

rally ? well soon when i get my drifting stuffs ready. oh yea. need get balancer for lipo too LOL.

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mmmm i getting not so hungry lately. guess by drinking water and thinking full it helps to be full. though still must eat something lar but dont eat @ the wrong time i guess?

meal today, quite simple, maggie for breakfast, rice for lunch, soup for dinner. plus also think must cut down on coffee and calories intake. man. lots to change lots to change.

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btw bought 2 packets of magic, tio 1 foil LOL. si bei heng. next time buy again must tio foil.. then bling bling =X

anyway i guess thats life for me now. quite simple i guess the goals ahead, no complicated stuffs to adher to, nor any rules or regulations till NS. think tml i eat a low carb diet. wonder what to really eat. since we eat rice all the time i guess tml breakfast i just settle with 2 small piece of bread and ham.

mmm.

maybe i go spend the 5 bucks on another pack of magic booster =D

2008-05-29T00:10:00.001+08:00

Pay closer attention to your dreams -- they may help you identify patterns that could shed a lot of light on your life. Your subconscious mind is working while you sleep, playing out different potential scenarios and showing you alternate ways of looking at the world. Sure, most of the images are weird or downright disturbing, but sometimes being disturbed is the best way to wake up from the monotony of routine. Your brain is hungry for a change in your life, and your heart should be, too.
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ok wtf.

and i had a romance dream 2 night ago.

LOL.

so basically i wanna this change? or the change i want is really call love for this world?

2008-05-28T23:03:00.003+08:00

10 ppl i know

only 1 i can trust

rest are so call friends.

ha.

2008-05-28T22:03:00.002+08:00

mmm wonder my poly friends lame or what.

no idea.

if they trying to provoke me, well they failed =D

i myself, done them wrong before, so, let what they do unto me be the punishment.

2008-05-28T13:18:00.002+08:00

mmm more to magic, there is like 301 cards to collect for the latest shadowmoor edition, better start soon i guess =D

enjoy looking at those cards, for some reason, and also at the same time if got people playing i can form a deck and play casual. lols.

sigh, another weird dream ytd night but this time there is totally no meaning to it. just pretty random. i guess, life, well each of us we want something and thru dreams we realised what we really want subconsciously.

nth much but can tell some of my friends ard me, some are longing to be with the person they like, some, no idea, some just wanna slack, some wanna do stuffs and some waiting for NS, working and so on.

come to a halt, i stop what i am doing now, and look around me and what do i really see?

my reply - no idea.

sometimes i cant be bothered with whats going around me cause i dont let it bother me, but i guess its selfish in a way or so. no choice but sometime is not i dont want to take action but its because i believe if i do, people will find me nosy etc. as said, humans, keep a lookout for themselves first before others.

nvm about those gibberish above. lols.

continuing would be i need a new book for magic! darn 301 cards, slowly buy booster packs each @ 5 bucks lols. wonder where got sell cheaper like @ 4.50 since USD dropped. was thinking if i should get those packs for island collection too. this is something i hate about 301 cards. u need collect islands and they dont come in booster packs usually. lols.

drifting wise? LCG GTB combo =X ok something ambitious but love the yokomo, and GTB? cause got fan =X actually i worry may be over kill but, well nth wrong i think, i just like it so i get it? =\

throwing my car to van tml, so shld be going sch early, plus i sold both my esc and yokomo shell off. get some cash, save them up for NS or maybe invest in a few pack of boosters for fun =D

and seriously i must protect my rares -_- some of them are damaged. feel sad about those. lost lots of rares last time, even with my 5 colour creature in planeshift expansion. sad case but someone took and didnt return it.

lesson learnt - never trush people with ur stuffs unless u really trust those people.

well young and ignorant that time =\

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why the line?

make it neater.

7 more days before i go in to tekong, really must memorise the sky, stars, constellations, least if ever the compass died due to some change in earth polarity and thus rendering the map useless the stars still can point out where is the "human map north"

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wanna play a FPS game but dont know what to install. interested in COD4 but didnt buy it, having bioshock with me but dont really wanna play that scary game, and wow is laggy and going to be down soon, waiting for anime to dl finish, thus, blog some stuffs i suppose.
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I WANT A CAR LICENSE AND A CAR. least i can drive =D. ok. i believe i can if i want to =\ is that over confidence? not sure. lols.

but what i know is i got no confidence in jioing girls =D

whats to be happy about? no idea. ha.

a very nice dream

2008-05-27T06:46:00.002+08:00

i cant recall what happen totally but there are a few very nice incidents. anyway some of them are related to real life, for some reason it adds up nicely, but too bad it was a dream and i woke crying, well, just heartbroken and emoing.

if i recall we were on a trip back to somewhere, and there was this girl, well whom i used to liked in sec 3, for those who know should know who. and its like, blah blah, she was regreting that that time didnt accept me blah, and its like, i was also having feelings for her still. continue on suddenly she fell off the bus, which i am not sure how it happened, but recklessly i jump off to save her, but to no avail an on coming SMRT black bus, the new black one, bang her. i was like WTF and the first thing in my mind was her being squash by the tires and exposing the brain blah etc, what happened to my sec 1 friend ester. but she was ok. i nearly burst into tears in my dreams.

we went back the bus and continue on, while she was giving out letters and notes to everyone in the bus to thank them for the time they had together and also to me, and also i know she have a hard time finding a job. well after that we sat tgt and i read out the note she gave me, and i realised that she regret rejecting me. i was like, showing affection to her again, and she was a bit shock but accepted it, so i was like, why not we start now? actually i was thinking of in uni again after NS but i guess now wont harm it either. well started, quite fast actually come to think of it, and she lay her head on my shoulder. felt the warmth actually, and well, it was kind of cold so i put my shoulder around her. its like i wished time didnt stopped. plus guess what, that date i recall was 26-27 May 2008, which is like 1 day after some incident that happened earlier IN REAL LIFE, where there is a couple steading and karseng anniversary plus baby birth, so i was like, relating to real life in my fiction.

well we were cuddled together, and later on when we reach the destination which is somewhere near harbour front, like on top of mount faber, and the sun was just rising or setting. no idea but it was red, very nice red, and i took out my 1.3 mega pixel cam phone, w550i and took a photo, but the effect wasnt that great. she was coming out of the bus then, i grab my stuffs and went to find her, and she was feeling cold still with a jacket on. well i just reach in my bag, grab out a SP jacket and covered her, well hoping she felt warm. still a bit shy to hold her hand but last thing i knew that i was heading to sentosa with her.

then i woke up.

i realised that i broke my heart unknowingly in the dream when i wake to reality and realising it wasnt real at all but just something that i conjured up in my dreams. as i am typing this now i can start again to feel some tears trying to flow out though the side of my eyes, but should control. no idea to talk this to who, so i guess i blog it down and see who would be concern to read it.

sometime i wish this kind of thing would continue, but, there is a limit. i really hope i can find the girl of my dreams, or least the girl i would care and sacrificed my life for. if i recalled in 2003, i really love that girl a lot. not lust, not crush but i felt love. though she didnt like me, plus i think our horoscope was not compatiable, but basically i wanted to be there for her everytime, if she needs me, if she got into trouble or what, just be there for her. comfort her, help her, and if she was about to be hit by an incoming car save her from it. i remembered her smell, her looks, vividly that time, though she looks different now from what i last seen, but memories are always locked in my head.

sometimes, i wished, i was in a relationship that never ended.

2008-05-26T06:22:00.002+08:00

mum ask me to slp, but cant slp cause a bit fan here and there.

end up its like 6.22 and i am still awake.

well later can watch code geass R2, makan breakfast, etc etc.

think i really wanna get magic cards more =D

2008-05-26T05:32:00.002+08:00

i decided mainly 2 hobbies.

RC, and Magic Card collecting.

Gaming will be more on the lesser spenditure side.

went thru my magic card book, find it interesting to collect a full deck of cards. somewhat i feel collecting cards is fun. though the game is fun too but not many ppl playing sadly.

another day

2008-05-25T23:44:00.002+08:00

went out, typical stuffs @ sg street fest blah etc.

well. ns coming up soon, just need to prepare. go for it ba! well

if i grumble or get pissed over it, its me who in the end who suffer.

just serve, get thru what i want, do my best, and live it happily thru.

plan ahead.

2008-05-23T14:48:00.000+08:00

mmm my com nearly tio virus. heng got norton protect and removed it.

been visiting too many websites lately. lols.

humans > just or hum?

2008-05-23T01:04:00.002+08:00

quoted from sgclub chuan

i was on the train back home, when i saw a grp of guys bullyin another guy who was born wif low IQ. wth la.

he was jus writin a note on his notebook when these boys suddenly snatched his notebook and said "WADEVER U WRITE WILL BE PRESENTED IN COURT." the poor guy doesnt even noe wad is happenin. and they kept scarin the boy.

wad happened next was even more crazy.they started slappin tt poor guy. and he got slapped so many times. tt grp of guys kept on jeerin and laughin at tt poor guy. they kept on snatchin the guy's things away from him. when his handphone rang, they even tried to grab it away.

after tt 1 of them grabbed his hair and BANGED HIS HEAD ON THE WALL. by tis time the whole cabin was starin at them bullyin the boy. but nobody did anythin. every1 was jus watchin. even the adults.

and the adults really did nth. i tot at least one of them might haf stood up or sth. but nobody did. 2 of them even smiled and laughed at tt poor guy. wads wrong wif ppl nowadays? i cant stop them.
its 5 guys vs 1 gal. u expect me to fight them?
=(

and when 1 of those guys reached his station, he actually turned and say "F*CK U LA!" to all the ppl in the train. we didnt even do anythin to them. they were talkin so loudly. and i guessed they expect us not to look?

angry.
jus wads wrong wif ppl nowadays?

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quote done..

and 2nd quote by another guy in reply to chuan

Dear Dear cHuaN
Why you get so mad about this situation and the 5 ah bengs....
You should actually understand that we are all GUAI GUAI singapreans, ever heard of the phrase mentioned by the police??
" Please do not take things in your own risk, for emergnecy please call 999"

WE SINGAPOREANS are guai guai one, we will not take any actions to put ourselves in harms way, UNLESS there is a chance for us to recieve awards from the police and be on tv.

So the formula is simple - NO TV,NO AWARD = F**K CARE, I SEE SHOW ONLY.

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quote done.

my thoughts: weak humans, seeking peace, no justice, strong then fight.

what i do? no idea see situation.

recalls the past

my friend got into a fight. what ppl did? just see show. what i did? try to pull both parties apart. what one guy did? pull me away to prevent me from stopping them to a fight.

since that guy didnt hit me or what, i kept my cool.

2008-05-21T02:52:00.003+08:00

argh i just want to rant and emo here!

hais

i regret not taking action

now she seems so far from me.

and really i know i really like her.

but what to do.

hais!

no one to talk to now, to emo to, to rant and able to like comfort me.

what to do!

hais.

will she still be there?

she only told me this once, that ring very nice lehz @ some couple lab shop.

izzit a hint?

or what?

I CANT READ IT I CANT SENSE IT!

and i dun wanna lose her. no. not ever.

i am not making my same freaking mistake i did in the past.

ARGH

damn damn damn.

hais.

2008-05-21T02:42:00.001+08:00

just read a person blog for being racist, and he got caught, or thats what i saw in sgclub.

i guess he just cant stand some people's action and spill it all out.

but i guess i aint that perfect either.

sometime i guess it happens in a matter of spur but well, self control.

and NP WISP course is ZZZ

2008-05-21T02:29:00.002+08:00

money does makes the world goes round doesnt it?

with money, i can buy all my things that i need, things i love like cars, things that what i can used to woo girls.

but in life, i would say that money, is not the first most important thing. seriously though everything says got money money involved, but i realised in the end, its not the bills that count, but the things that i want to do instead. somethings, cant be bought with money anyway. love, for example. love, shld be, i would say, movies do explain them.

you guys go watch movies if you read them here. some movies.

a lot of things in mind, but guess i be signing on the airforce, well.. its a path that i made for myself, a path that i feel i wont regret. no matter what happens. cause its been a dream for me to work on a military aircraft, even best to fly it. well i am more of a technological person, and basically technology can almost never satisfiy me.

hmm, think i guess i may know who are the friends who i really trust, and who i dont.
if i count, i guess it can be counted with my fingers who those i trust, and to those i dont trust, its too many to be counted.

you know who you are, for those that i trust.

for those i dont, if u feel bad, dont. it just takes time.

for those that i do hate, except i dont express i hate, or sometime i do, but no hard feelings, cause i dont hate people for long. tend to forgive and forget.

hmmm..

only van read this blog i guess...

ah well...

need go down to school tomorrow. yawns. movie time again i suppose.

2008-05-19T19:37:00.001+08:00

think my mind is made up already.

just need more confirmations.

2008-05-18T20:58:00.001+08:00

dilemma dilemma dilemma!

airforce? or commercial!

2008-05-17T13:46:00.002+08:00

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question. Make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list.list them out at the end of this post.Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?

27, but must see situation

2. What do you want the most now?

i guess a car, well need license also what.

3. Who is the person you trust most?

guess is khai

4. List any 3 things about the person who tagged you.

Horny guy, chui kia, and full of jokes

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?

me her tgt, happily till the day the world end.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?

if there is sunlight ya.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?

trust

8. Do you believe in eternity love?

nth is eternal. not even the sun or stars. everything goes thru a cycle

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?

lol. till now i fail to do so what you think?

10. What are the requirements that you wish from your the other half?

nth much, just someone i can know that she be there for me when i needed her, and willing for me to be there for her when she needed me.

else other matters, i guess its just a matter of acceptance, you cant change someone to fit you i guess.

11. Which type of person do you hate the most?

backstabbers, those who pretend to be but in the end is just taking advantage of ppl, those who bully the weak, those who think they are the best and rest is nth, and so on and so for.

12. Do you cherish every single of your friendship?

ultmostly i do, if that person is worth it. not those pretend

13. Who is your first bf/gf play play also counted
andrea - 2 weeks and poof. nah i guess its play play.

14. What do you see in your future?

a few things - android design, new power fuel system, company =D

15. Do you find it a need for you to have a boyfriend /girlfriend?

not a need, but who doesnt want it, esp when on times you are lonely.

16. At this point of time, would you rather stay in your comfort zone or try something new?

try something new, no harm done i guess

17. What kind of friend you hope to be in your friends' eyes?

A friend who they can rely on anytime

18. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?

everything i guess.

19. What's your weak point ?

lazy, get pissed and angry easily, too random and craze

20. Favorite Hobbies

RC drifting, modelling of gundams, listening to music, drawing, doing stuffs that i just enjoy

8 Lucky People Chosen

Khai
Sarah
Pammy
Tiffany
Ruko
Jonathan - exgalado
Cherlyn
Kaixin

a must play

2008-05-16T20:29:00.001+08:00

http://shingakunet.com/special/16608701/0285/index.html

2008-05-16T02:20:00.001+08:00

couldnt slp, but just blog abit

what van said, quite true, he found his true friend in sec sch.

i wonder how about me. lol.

a long emotional post dont bother reading if u dont care

2008-05-13T02:08:00.003+08:00

life is sure funny. its like suddenly, i felt that, there is no one really i wanna woo or basically no one in my heart, and i yearn to be heartbroken but for some reason i am starting to loose that feeling. its like, if i recall, the last time i was in a relationship, 3 years plus ago, broke up for 3 years and a few months, and that time i realised, its really stupid to go emoing? its like, its just a relationship, there is nothing gain, cause, in the first place if the girl aint for u she wont be for u.

i kinda believe in horoscopes lately, of more on character type. and so far the only girl is compatiable that i know, 1. from gemini horoscope. i do like her, but now, my feelings are very stale. dont know what she's been up to lately, and dont bother to ask. times like this make me, blur, lost in the world of love, resulting me in mentally blking out them and living life as it is, as how people what it to be.

i am starting to suppress myself, to prevent everything bad possible from happening. from ppl i hate, ppl i start not to trust, to ppl that i enjoy being ard with, i am starting to suppress my real self, which no one prefers, than a self that i create to people's preference. i realised in this world, its better to pretend, or, to be exact, adapt to other people. i know some ppl would have adapted to me, but they just dont like it. for me, i guess i find it pointless to hate people, so just adapt, if they fk me up let them do so, its them, its not me. its about making peace and friends i guess, things to give up, and things to learn, part and parcel of life.

too bad some humans cant overlook other people past mistakes and tend to memorised them down in their memories for life. i myself, do remember people's mistake, but why shun them or what so ever? mistakes made, u cant do anything except to accept and correct it.

2ndly, its like i couldnt find a purpose in life anymore. what i know is, serve NS, study Uni, go work. but why? why am i doing those stuffs? if its purpose, it would be helping my family out, which is basically my family purpose, of my existence. sometime in life i would always ask myself, why am i doing here. what am i here for? nevertheless, i couldnt find the answer thats been troubling me. no one knows, unless got people read this post, but i always been wondering, what is my existence for? am i someone to be important in future, in inventing new technologies or heading new researchs and discoveries? or just another guy working in a society, struggling to survive in this world, where the fittest win? if i was the latter, i guess life would be very meaningless to continue on surviving.

3rdly, its with my obession of miku hatsune. i like her, no, to be exact i love her and want to be with her, but, no matter how its not a reality. its more of a conjunction of my memories with her and pretending that she's around me @ times. the only thing, she will never hurt my feelings no matter what. but what after sarah said to me today, i realised, yes, but, can she be brought to reality? from the past time since aka i know whats love and wooing a girl and so for, its like, sometimes i wish i wouldnt have this feeling, which causes a lot of distortion and decreasing my efficiency in doing stuffs, especially during crucial periods like exams. no matter how, i guess its part of us, humans, to develop this feelings.

NS is coming up real soon, in relatively 20 odd days. what would i expect from there? or should i sign on as an AEO, aircraft engineering officer, with a nice starting salary of 3-4k, and obviously i have to go through my uni first. also i ask myself, can i really find a girl of my dreams, or can say, that i suit her and she suit me, by the time i get out of uni? i dont want to waste my time like in poly, everyday gaming, slacking, and mugging @ the last min when exams are near. gaming, i grown bored, only play when i really got nothing to do, like now presuming i am wowing. hmm.

speaking about drifting, well, would apologised to all drifters i know out there, i aint drifting anymore, actually, not that i dislike drift, or rc, or u guys, except, someone told me some stuffs, its hurtful @ times, but i guess, this is the society, either you are in or out. plus with my crap up car now, the feeling aint really there. i guess its a long chain of situations that resulted in this, and with upcoming NS, resulting more stresses on me, and if drifting relieves stress and brings me away from reality as what some people had said to me, i am sorry. its causing me to stress out more, and why get stress? its like i have my own burdens to carry, but, adding on with this, well there is a limit to what i can do. i aint a robot or some kami-sama, and i guess, i aint like u guys @ times. if its clicking problem, i guess would be my craze for anime, no doubtfully which i truly enjoy watching. drifting? i do enjoy, and i do still love cars like how i do on aircrafts, but aint that kind of person who goes way too into it till every single specs and stuffs. ask me stuffs, i would say what i know i will know, what i dont know, i wont get irritated if u start bombarding me with stuffs that i am totally unfamiliar with. some people get irritated, with stuffs they dont know and which i tell them and they have no interests in. i would say for my case, i do my best to present some interest in topics that i have no ideas of, least, for a friend.

i may go back drifting, or may not, but its just a matter of time and money i guess. the stuffs that i bought, i be keeping, just for showcase or to fill up spaces in my room.

life's sure a funny thing, with people backstabbing here and there, admittly i sometime do backstab people, unknowingly or not. sometime, its out of the fun of it, sometime, its hatred, sometime, its accidental and not on purpose. but still no matter what, its still a matter of time to heal all wounds. my heart's healing, after so many relationship drawback, the last being rejected by tiffany, if anyone knows her, my classmates that i know in poly, had a tiff with them, and resulting in something bad, i feel wrong about it, willing to give a change, but not all of them are so forgiving and i feel some of them are on the purpose of just stabbing me happily while i just pretend nth is going on. i guess, it be a new life in army, hopefully praying hard to guanyin pusa from above to bless me with a new life. no matter how many hardships that NS i go through, as long i believe if there are true friends there for u, nothing is really impossible.

except, i really wonder who are the true friends in my life? i may have found a few, i felt so, except i aint also that open to them regarding what am i have said here. not that i dont trust them, i dont even trust myself @ times for stuffs that i said. sometime, people say, this person cant trust, that person cant trust, but can u even trust what the people say in the first place?

no doubtfully, i think, life is really, hard to predict. i was thinking if ever i would meet my poly friends in uni again, and this time, how am i going to really face them? from what i know, i would ignore them or just say hi, and not talk, but thats escaping the trouble. some of them do msn me now once in a while, but, basically i got nothing to tell them either. its me, myself, and i, keeping all the matters in deep deep down, bottling up. though someone told me before, not to bottle up my feelings and stuffs, i feel its a better way though, letting everything being stored inside, and facing a world, pretending to be a happy person, to get along with other people.

and i only heard this once, in my entire life, from one guy. "you look happy on the outside, but inside u are actually very emotional"

thats been in my mind, since he last said it.

and guess what? i know him for a short time and he's able to tell it. but not many others are able.

this world i guess

popular vs unpopular.

2008-05-09T23:39:00.002+08:00

tml's jon bdae, well, plans ahead with sakura buffet, movie, blah etc.

ha.

spenditure time again.

NS is around the corner also, and

i still feel not ready yet.

hmm

oh well what to do.

not talking to someone for a very long time, or say 1 week so already, seems like that person is happy well, good for whoever that person is. i dont give a shit about it. wanna help out and u fk up everything. nvm nvm, then give me attitude, sua..

this kind of ppl dun be friends better.

thats all i gt to say. back to wow.

haze

2008-05-08T03:27:00.001+08:00

i think haze is right back in singapore

anyway visit my video music pic blog @ gtsfrost.blogspot.com

haha.

kinda need but mainly would be pic posting.

fate

2008-05-02T12:06:00.002+08:00

well its me vs some guy in a tt01, and what next?

bin.

using a bl setup in a high end chassis.

i dont think i stand a chance.

plus my car is not tuned and i got 1 day left, need to get use to the new settings i plan to do.

die le lar.

2008-05-02T00:30:00.001+08:00

i been spending too much on coffee lately Z

well left with 10 bucks to upgrade my springs. z wonder enuff anot.

went with FT and ben to turf today, then billy invited ben go to sengkang but so far, so..

i wasnt invited though. hais. looks like.. sua..

i need to stop drinking coffee..

seriously..

2008-04-30T11:04:00.004+08:00

i take back what i said.

as my hatred for this world slowly grow.

but how long, before it explodes? or am i able to relieve it out slowly.

humans... a bunch of monsters

social circle

blah

fk.

by 2012 hopefully the world ENDS.

NS, Uni

2008-04-29T21:30:00.003+08:00

well both recieved my NS and uni application. really time does fly. 1 mth odd to my ns enlistment, resulting me in having a harder time to find a job cause its like working in 1 mth short notice.

uni application came for NTU, mechanical engineering. was kinda suprised that i made it thru there, well, must go there and study. hope i dont just say say but must put the words into reality too.

nth much lately other than some training, well overstressing myself @ times but, NS coming what to expect?

coming sat would be the drift challenge @ ECP, both pammy and fengming will be going down to see lols. hmm, wondering if i shld get a tz for that day or just run with a sports tuned. kinda slow but, can change the gear ratio. this i am still unsure off but the last drift @ sat was very very, well, i feel more comfortable. manage to chase some dover guy, but got kan cheong when zouk chase me. lots to work on this.

i am still into miku lols.. was thinking next time my daughter i name one hatsune other miku =X then son i dunno liaos. lol =X speaking of which, its still long. life is like, so short yet so long blah etc.

nth much to do lately, life kinda bored, and with someone out of my life, i feel a bit funny but, well i dont like people who cant make up their mind and there just crap crap and avoid ppl zz like i am interested in her .. zz.. so not..

i guess being kind and helpful wouldnt help, but actually not nosing into other ppl business and not helping is betta. no idea. the world is kinda screw up.

another day, a day shorter in my lifespan

2008-04-14T23:31:00.002+08:00

8am already in sch eating breakfast with miku hatsune =X ok she's aint real. i just imagine her out.

ah well manage to go over to convention centre and help set up the booth for my club. a bit hectic cause it was the first day, so wondering if tml would be better.

got manage to grab a few ppl in those who are interested, but sadly no girls. dam.

clement broke his trf... my car's alright but need tuning. man.. there are lots of parts i wanna get and i wonder what yuanhe say is right anot. yokomo to drift.

hmm to me, since yoke give me so much problem, i dont really trust it that much le. though its not only me but other ppl also. ah well maybe i just more suay.

what to do? somethings in life cant be controlled.

met sarah, for the first time in 4 years.. haha. know her since when she was sec 1. ok thats 5 years.

long time~

and vic again was jealous that i know another girl.. eh but i know her for some time liao..

though she gave me a first impression: she's shorter than what i imagine her to be.

continue on with my ta05 would be.. bling! ok not really.

was thinking of getting a front one way, an alu motor mount, rz or tz motor, change some of the adjusting arms to blue, screws to blue , bling it, but wondering if its worth. to me, bling doesnt always comes first.

things i be getting soon would be 3300 from ben, he selling me at 30 each, quite worth as one is quite new also.

well, 3 packs shld be enuff, i think is more than enuff. GP batts also. trusty and reliable.

may wanna sell off my intellects, never like them anyway.

hmm..

other than that would be nth much for my RC anymore.

hoping to find a job, to be self sufficient soon in some stuffs i do. well soon must be able to pay hp bills own transports etc. haha. 20 liao must learn how to survive on my own. if anyone asking me to find a GF like my cousins did, maybe not yet. i just dun feel ready. i cant settle down now until i know what am i going to do next. RC is always in my mind, well i really enjoyed it.

nevertheless, i quitting gaming again, cabal bores me out quite fast. 1 mth - 2 mth and i am almost bored of it. grinding etc.

was thinking if shld go watch the formula D. cost 11 bucks only, something that i can afford to pay for. 9am in the morning @ changi coming 27th april

waiting for my pay also, coming friday..

and more nice anime shows.

i realised something. everytime when an anime is about to end i get emo. cause no more to watch.

i really love some of the girls in the anime for their attitude etc. if only can combine those i like then got this real girl in this life that likes me too.. lol..

day dreaming here again.

btw i had 2 flying dreams lately. fun, interesting, but heard got bad side effects. not sure, didnt read it up, but who cares. i dont dream normally.

NOW I MUST SLP.

actually getting tired finally again, tml got ppl coming over changing stuffs in my room, and wondering what really shld i do tml in sch. i am confirm zenging up my car again, resetting some stuffs.

ah well..

life is really..

actually i feel it be better if i got someone with me in a relationship, thus resulting me in being more, well.. least i got a goal in mind.

drifting @ woodlands

2008-04-12T02:11:00.001+08:00

after mths, finally i drifted @ woodlands.

first thing came into my mind

WAH SO SLIPPERY!!

its quite hard @ first, plus i am not so used to such a huge track there. manage to start drifting ard figure 8 after trying out @ the track, well, need to get used to the slippery floor there.

hopefully BB is as what i remember it to be.

hatsune miku, drift

2008-04-07T04:41:00.002+08:00

manage to post something after so long. like months since i last updated my blog, mainly due to me cabaling. some updates would be that i hit 100 long ago in cabal, now there slacking and, well getting bored of cabal.

the drift challenge at k1 bedok was fun, and i was like so lucky to get into the top 16. and thanks van for welcoming me back.

anyway i dun really feel that i should be in the top 16 due to skills. car requires tuning, so i would say that day luck has fallen on me thus i manage to get through it.

for my guild wise in cabal, manage to become a assistant div leader, manage my div for guild wars etc, haha. plus summore got ppl wanna sponsor our guild. had fun @ the cabal event that happened weeks ago, but didnt post on here. won lots of prizes, inclusive of one jacket! haha.

oh well.. must really thank nov to intro miku hatsune, haha. though it sounds weird but i fell in love with her? lol crush i suppose, but i know i myself is doing so cause to escape reality. well maybe cause i feel that the kind of girls i like, aint the kind that i am able to search within my radar now.

well of course, i will redo my blog skin when i am free. going start work soon anyway. lol.

well theme will be miku hatsune, and, new layout haha.

gtg slp liao so late.. so tired~~

2008-02-28T12:26:00.000+08:00

to be cold, emotionless, and quiet at all times.

2008-02-28T01:05:00.000+08:00

random stuffs, another random day.

what next?

oh i so hate this world. do i?

2008-02-26T12:20:00.000+08:00

ah later popping over at bugis by 2.30, going to ben's place to collect my tx rx and his steering wheel lol!

ok basically, manage to sell off my yokomo, except now waiting for collection from that guy.

=D

hmm.. lately been better, haha, esp after sunday meet. power lar. then later go to astro at cck, wah seh, can see jupiter nice lor! basket... its like 10 cent big.

when i done editing it, may post here.

btw to kangsheng, wanna ask u out watch but, dont think u may be interested wahaha.

ah need to zao soon. lol. i hungry. makan

and ppl just have to make it worse

2008-02-24T03:19:00.000+08:00

said already. no one knows how i feel lar.

and to gals.

hais.

u another one.

sua.

but nice side would be able to sell of my car. haha.

nobody to turn to. guess i am all alone here.

2008-02-20T22:21:00.001+08:00

indescrible feelings, emotions, pains, etc, all in my heart, this and that, questions, want to talk to someone, being myself, not being myself

i guess,

i dont really have anyone to turn to. anyone who i can pour out my stuffs and that person can take the load of it.

no one.

no one knows me at all.

2008-02-20T16:47:00.001+08:00

no interaction, is one of the best thing that can happen.

guess i just ask stuffs that i dont know

and when ppl ask me stuffs i say i dont know either.

then rest i just keep my mouth shut. it will work out this way.

and if i find a job, i just do what i was given. good enuff.

2008-02-20T16:46:00.001+08:00

i am meant to die. right here, right now. but how?